I have already been to 2 wakes in just 2 weeks and it's kind of depressing. Honestly speaking, I'm not used to this kind of things. I know only a few people and most of them are still alive and kicking *fortunately*. However, these past weeks have been different. Two, somehow-close-to-me persons have already passed away --my friend's mom and a neighborhood friend. It's old news that they have cancer and are about to leave this earth but it still shocks you when they finally say goodbye.

Personally, I am afraid of dying. Well, not me dying but them.. those people that are so close to me. I guess I just wouldn't bear the separation. You know, not being able to see or hear from them forever. It's like losing a big part of your life that you got used to. It makes you feel kinda empty or incomplete. Then again, after hearing the short speech during a service for my friend's mother, I had this new outlook of death. She was right you know.. "living and dying are both blessings." You live in order to achieve what you can, do what you must and be what you can be using what God has given you --the talent, the knowledge, His teachings and of course, the life. He wants us to celebrate life. On the other hand, I think He also wants us to celebrate death. Not celebrate as in have parties and the like, but be happy for the person who "left." It's true that he/she won't be walking this earth anymore, won't be able to enjoy the things that we do, etc. but if we look closely, that person is even happier than us. He/she is in paradise with our Maker where there's no sickness, suffering, death nor debt. What else could be way uber than that??? So you see, we shouldn't mourn or be worried so much for the departed especially if they have lived a good life. I'm pretty sure they're happy where they are and someday we will get to be with them again.

To my dear friend *wala kasi akong masyadong nasulat dun sa card namin syo --hehe*... I can't say I feel what you're feeling right now but I do extend my deepest sympathies. You have indeed experienced a great loss but I want you to know that everything has a reason.. God has His reason. I'm not sure what it is but let's just be thankful that your mom is finally relieved of her suffering and that she is very much happy with the Lord. She is at peace now and I don't think she would want to see that frown on your face nor tear from your eye. Anyways, I will continue to pray for you and your family. I'm sure you can surpass this ordeal. In case you need support, keep in mind that your pretty friends are always here.. and we'll always love you no matter what *hugs*

In loving memory of..

and
Mr. Oscar "Boy" Zablan

you will be greatly missed.